As more of the people I know create their own blogs (and as I discover them), I have been reading them. And I’m learning. A lot.
A lot more about my friends then I even thought I knew. And I’m shocked by the consistency of something they almost all have in common: depression. Like, suicidal depression.
Either I have somehow become surrounded by some of the most brilliant philosophers on earth, or some of the most lonely folks on earth. Which is hard in this homeschool community where “everybody knows everybody.”
That’s why I titled this the “Stained-Glass Masquerade.” Yes, Casting Crowns reference. I see these people and they’re all smiles, laughter, and friendship. You would think they’re the happiest people on earth. Shining examples of the Joy found in Jesus.
But they’re not. They’re putting on facades. Going through the motions for their parents and friends. And that hurts that I couldn’t see that. I hurt for my friends.
Some of these people I’m not particularly fond of. I could see they were putting on masks. But I didn’t care why. I didn’t care to know why they were putting on masks.
How could I be so stupid? I’m the real hypocrite.
Is this how everyone else really is? I guess my life with all its troubles must be wonderful to them. I don’t think like they apparently are. I guess I simply have focused on Joy and made it a goal.
I know that I can pull through bad situations better than others, but this is different. I seem to live a happier life than most people I know. How is that?
I’m not trying to brag. That’s the complete opposite of what I’m trying to do here. I’m trying to figure out how I lived in a bubble.
No, not a bubble. Just in joy. Happiness. I decided to focus on Jesus and the things of Heaven, and apparently it has helped liven my view of things.
But I have also apparently missed a lot. But I guess that fault was on my end, not His.
I focused on making my life great, and some of my friends seem halfway to suicide. Of course, my life isn’t all rainbows and unicorns. I have fights and struggles. I’m a guy for Pete’s sake, it’s not hard to figure out: pride, lust, self-control, etc.
But overall my life seems to be happier than theirs. Unless they just take the time to write out all their sorrows and nothing but. But that’s depressing. Who wouldn’t want to add some great things in their life, every now and then?
I guess this goes to show that it’s not just nonbelievers who need Jesus. Stained-glass believers need Him too. Jesus doesn’t call us to repent so to avoid hell, but so we can live for Him. Live in joy. In freedom. No fear. No unfounded worries.
There is so much joy found in knowing Him. I now know my friends apparently need that joy. Badly. So I’m just gonna have to show it to them instead of avoiding/judging them.
I just can’t believe I didn’t see it in that one person though. I thought they had it all figured out and was living in general peace with themself and the world. So much for that…
Well, I guess it’s time to share Jesus. Starting with my inner circle.